Vampires

I sat down to write tonight and started listening to music instead. I came across this song…”If We Were Vampires”…by an artist I had never heard of before…Jason Isbell. It is a poetically beautiful song and very fitting because it is about ideas that have been going through my head a lot lately.

After Jason was diagnosed, I honestly would have done ANYTHING to trade places with him. Seeing the person I love most in this world in pain and losing parts of himself bit by bit…slowly. Confused…unsure of himself…unable to make the simplest of decisions. He did not deserve any of that and it was excruciating to not be able to do anything to make it better.

And now I think he’s the lucky one, because this pain…this being the one left behind…being alone…looking into a future without him in it…sucks.

"Maybe time running out is a gift
I'll work hard 'til the end of my shift
And give you every second I can find
And hope it isn't me who's left behind

It's knowing that this can't go on forever
Likely one of us will have to spend some days alone
Maybe we'll get forty years together
But one day I'll be gone
Or one day you'll be gone"
--Jason Isbell

I wish we would’ve had 40 years…

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