Do you ever have a dream that sticks with you throughout the day and you just can’t shake it? That was me today. I had a pretty much identical dream twice last night. In my dream “they” let Jason come back for a few days. I don’t remember him saying anything to me, but I distinctly remember being tucked in his side under his arm and telling him how shit life is without him and how I don’t know what to do with myself when he’s gone. Both times I woke up with tears streaming down my face. I wish he would have said something…but he didn’t.
He would have been so proud of our boys today. Seth got his first job at the same health club I work at. I jokingly told him at dinner that he can now either call me Boss or Mrs. Fregien…he didn’t even chuckle…rude.
Levi had Freshmen Orientation tonight. I’m not ready for my baby to grow up. I was glad it was dark when they were playing the intro video because I was so teary-eyed thinking about how Jason is going to miss all of his high school years. Ugh…that sucks. Go Eastview Lightning Class of 2025!
Love, Tennis, and Cancer 