I took a mental health day off of work today. Yesterday, was a better day at work than Tuesday was, but when I decided to take today off I felt like a huge weight lifted from my shoulders. I think yesterday was emotionally draining for me more than anything. The Club is busy…lots of people with family in from out of town…kids home from college…kids off school…the Christmas buzz is in the air…and I really just want to pull what’s left of my family in close and not leave the house for a few days. I don’t begrudge anyone their Christmas Spirit…this used to be my favorite time of year…but that’s just not the place I’m at now.
Last night the kids and I went with Jeremy and Cheryl and their family to the GLOW fest at the State Fair Grounds. If you live in the area I highly recommend it. The tickets are a little spendy, but if you are looking for something a little special to do I think it’s worth it. I’m really glad that we went. I think we needed a little Forced Fregien Family Fun. Being without Jason at things like that is really hard though…and something I’m not sure I will ever get used to…or that will ever get easier. I wanted him beside me so I could hold onto his elbow as we strolled along in the lights. We would have taken selfies. He would have gotten hot chocolate while I really enjoyed the mulled wine. I would have nuzzled my nose into his neck when it got cold. Instead I was watching the kids…happy that they seemed to be having a good time…wiping tears from my cheeks before they froze.
Love, Tennis, and Cancer 