Frustration

Feeling frustrated, defeated, vulnerable, sad tonight. I’m trying to do all the right things…getting things put in my name, etc…and it is hard. It’s emotionally draining….and I’m finding that some companies really don’t seem to give a shit about you and will do everything they can to make the process harder. I don’t have the energy for that. It makes me feel vulnerable and stupid…and angry that a company would take advantage of someone in my position.

People keep telling me I’m so strong. I don’t feel that way tonight….but I guess I’ll get up tomorrow…do all the things again…find some time to make more phone calls. It’s not like I have much of a choice.