3 Months

Yesterday was 13….today is 3…13 weeks…3 months. The big question on my mind today is “HOW?” How did this happen? How is it that he is gone and I’m still here? How have I made it three months? How do I keep going? Every day I wake up…reminded of my new reality…drag myself out of bed…just get through this day. I’m thankful for our three beautiful children…and the two furry ones…they give me reasons to keep on keeping on.

This is the poem I was working on last night before my wedding ring debacle…

The Unwelcome Guest

I envy you
For not understanding
How I feel.

I wish I was a stranger
To this
Pain.

Instead grief
Has become
An unwelcome guest.

But not a guest-
A resident-
Here to stay.