I know I haven’t been writing much. Life is kicking my butt and I’ve been busy constantly taking care of “stuff”. I did manage to cross two things off my list. First and foremost, I fixed my own dishwasher!! Yes…I had some suggestions of what to do from my boss, but I fixed the damn thing! Luckily, the only tools I needed were a screwdriver and a shopvac. Super gross moment when I stuck the hose in the gross dishwasher water and accidentally “blew” it instead of “sucked” it all over myself….who knew the shopvac could even do that?? Second, Seth’s car is all fixed from the hail damage…and now mine is having it’s turn so we are still down a car…but progress is being made.
Other things that happened this week. I got estimates for two types of siding for my house…so now I’m trying to decide which one to go with….ugh…I hate making those types of decisions. The insurance adjuster was out looking at my house. He took a lot of pictures, so hopefully that’s a good sign. I paid the downpayment on my fence, so now I have to get the fence line cleared before Aug 1. Yikes! I also had a weird bug that seemed to really only involve a fever. Woke up Wed morning at 1am with a fever of 101. Fevers make my body and mind do weird things and I hate them. But luckily tylenol and ibuprofen did the trick and now I’m fine. And last, but not least, Levi got All Conference for Tennis. There wasn’t a ceremony…he was just modeling his new dress clothes…lol
Today was kind of a quiet and lonely day. Went to breakfast with the kids this morning and then Anna and I went to Barnes and Noble. I picked up a couple fantasy books and a couple poetry books. Really wanted to find a good fiction book I could lose myself in today, but it hasn’t really worked. Mostly I’ve had this poem writing itself in my head all day. Maybe now that it’s out I can read…ha!
The Spaces It’s in the spaces That I miss you. The space to my left Where you would walk each evening My hand in your elbow Pups along at our sides Tongues hanging out Happy to be alive. It’s in the spaces That I miss you. Beside me in the car Your hand on my thigh Mine tracing your thumbnail That weird flat spot Didn’t matter where we were going You and me on a drive. It’s in the spaces That I miss you. The smell of tennis balls The “pop” of a forehand A fistpump Look to the sideline I give a grin Happy to be your biggest fan. It’s in the spaces That I miss you. Sitting together Cuddled on the couch Wine in hand Long day unwinding Perfection At peace with my man. It’s in the spaces That I miss you. Together watching our kids The games and the matches Band concerts Marching band shows Graduations Proudest of parents. It’s in the spaces That I miss you. Ree and Jas Out with friends Dinner and drinks The smiles and laughs Carefree and happy Cherished moments. It’s in the spaces That I miss you. In that drowsy time Between asleep And awake Spooned into your body Complete contentment No one else exists. It’s in the spaces That I miss you. Where only you belong Now I struggle To make sense of life Where your light Was bright Now darkness.
Love, Tennis, and Cancer 