Tomorrow Seth and I are making the drive to Wausau to get him settled with my sister and brother-in-law and all set to start college! I am happy/proud/excited for him but oh so sad and restless and melancholy for me tonight. I keep thinking about how proud Jason would be of him…and I hate that he is missing out on all of these important milestones in our kids’ lives…and that they don’t have him here. It just really sucks.
Tonight is no good Sad Restless Out of sorts I pour my wine Red elixir Wander the house Looking for your ghost Maybe I should go to bed Sleep Wait for you To visit me in a dream But the bed’s too big Lonely Sheets too cold Without you in between They say that time Will heal Take away This all-consuming ache But our love is too big To be Forgot My life a colorless fake
Love, Tennis, and Cancer 