Thanksgiving Recap

The kids and I had a good Thanksgiving yesterday at Jason’s sister Jennifer’s house. I love being around them because I feel and see Jason in so many of the things that his family does…and I feel like he is extra smiling down on us and happy when we are together. This makes things extra emotional for me sometimes, but I think that’s okay.

The green bean casserole would have been his favorite…and his sister made it just the way he likes it. I had a hard time swallowing it past the lump in my throat. While everyone else ate their pie room temperature, his brother said “wait…I want mine heated in the microwave first”. Jason would have done the same thing with his apple pie. No way he would have eaten it without heating it up first.

After dinner his sister got out Uno and our kids played with their cousins and aunt and uncle. I was immediately transported back to all the Uno games we played after I first met Jason and Jeremy back in 1996. This was back in the first few months of school when I was still with my ex and Jason had a girlfriend back home in Red Wing. Jason, Jeremy, me, my boyfriend, and my boyfriend’s friend would sit around a table in the basement of Murray Hall and play Uno. It was the first time I was introduced to the “Fregien way” of playing Uno…which of course is the way they played yesterday. Jason would have been right there playing with them yesterday and letting me relax…just like he did at so many other family gatherings.

We were all tired when we got home and spent the rest of the day curled up in Jason’s quilt and watching movies.

Thank you to everyone who thought about us and prayed for us yesterday. I appreciated all the texts, emails, and other messages I received. We are blessed.

Thanksgiving

Grief and Gratitude. I feel both so overwhelmingly today.

Thanksgiving

Dear God

Sometimes gratitude is difficult
When my heart is broke in two.
I don’t understand Your plan.
I’m confused and angry too.

But today as I sit at this table
Surrounded by those I love
I want to take this time to remember 
Your blessings from above.

You gave us three beautiful children.
They fill me with joy and pride.
I do my best to be their Mom
Without Jason by my side.

You gave me a wonderful family-
Both mine and Jason’s too.
We all grieve together
While he is there with You.

I have a wonderful group of friends.
When I need them they are there-
To cry to laugh to drink some wine
Or walk the dogs in the chilly air.

If this heartache has taught me anything
It’s that these are the most important things
The love of family and friends
Because you never know what the future brings.


Thanksgiving 2020