Pictures and Poetry

My weekend was actually pretty good. I enjoyed going through pictures and thinking about good times. Makes me homesick for the past. I had a conversation with Levi about this one of Jason and I in college… and about how we were younger than Anna is now in the picture. I think he was kind of flabbergasted.

I feel sad that there are whole years of pictures missing. Jason had them all digital and I can’t figure out where he saved them as they are not on our computer. We have a lot printed out from when Anna was a baby, but not very many from Seth and Levi’s baby years before we started taking all of our pictures with cell phones instead of cameras. I wish I could ask him where they are.

I met a friend for breakfast today…which was really awesome. I talked so much I didn’t make it through my whole breakfast burrito. Sorry Vicki…next time you get to talk. Sometimes I feel like unless I’m at work I spend a lot of time alone having whole conversations in my head…or with my dogs. If I’m feeling really down everything in my head starts forming itself into poetry. That doesn’t happen when I’m in a good mood…I’m weird. I guess if I ever start talking to you like I’m Dr. Seuss you might want to throw chocolate at me and run away because I am not in a good mood.

Speaking of poetry, I ordered two more books of poetry that are supposed to come tomorrow. I just can’t get enough. It’s all I want to read. Something about it just connects with me inside. The written word is so powerful. The kind of ironic thing about poetry is that…depending upon what kind it is…there is a lot of math in it as well. It is what makes the cadence of the words so appealing…how many syllables in the words and such. So fascinating. I’ve been thinking about taking a poetry class someday…when I have time…ha!

Aerosmith

Today I have been immersed in going through photos…the ones from our college years are really fun. Check this one out from our Sophomore year…modeling our matching UWEC gear. Jason bought me that huge white teddy bear on my bed for our first Valentine’s Day. We were young, naive, and already so in love…we knew.

Our love didn’t stay the same…it only grew stronger through the years. Until 25ish years later we ended up here…on a dance floor…dancing to “our song” at his brother’s wedding. I only have a few snippets of video of this dance, but it’s engraved on my heart forever. I love this moment because it is so “us”. We both knew in our hearts it was our last dance, yet even though we were both in pain and crying we found something to talk about and laugh over…what it was I have no idea…and his eyes were filled with such love for me it was all I could see.

And the only thing he could see was me. He didn’t realize that we were the only ones dancing…he hated being the center of attention…until the song ended and everyone applauded.

That right there is a love that is worth everything.