I’m sitting on my deck tonight trying to process my day. My therapist told me today that she’s moving to Montana in July. Anyone who has had any sort of conversation with me can guess that I am absolutely devastated. For the past year Tara has been pivotal in my life. I met her when I was at the bottom of a deep, dark hole. She would be quick to tell you that she didn’t pull me up….that I did that all on my own…but she was the one that helped me see that I could…that I was worthy of the sunlight on my face.
And now…I feel blindsided. I’m trying to keep my Abandonment Issues at bay. But it’s hard. It feels like yet another person in my life who is leaving me…and I’m kind of pissed off about it.
But….I’m also happy for her and want her to do the best thing for herself and her family. And I trust that she will leave me in good hands with one of her colleagues. But dammit…it feels like starting over. Again. And I will miss HER.
On a positive note, I got to hang out with a great friend tonight and listen to Baby Girl and the South of the River Community Band.
Love, Tennis, and Cancer 