Lonely

So lonely, but I don’t want to be with people…I want to be with just one person…my person. How am I supposed to go on for the rest of my life feeling lonely? I don’t know.

Jason and I got married young…22 years old! And had all three of our babies before we turned 30. We were just starting to enjoy the sweetness of life. Our kids are awesome and fun now! We don’t have to deal with temper tantrums, naptimes, time outs…well, unless we let Levi get too hungry…lol. Jason was looking forward to being able to play tennis with our boys as equals…instead of holding back with them. Anna is in college and such a lovely young lady…on the precipice of great things.

We were enjoying being able to go out on date nights without worrying about the kids…as long as we ordered them Cane’s! We enjoyed each other’s company so much it didn’t even matter what we did! When Covid hit and nothing was open we would go through the Caribou drive-thru and sit and drink our coffee in a parking lot. It didn’t matter. It sounds cliche, but is totally the truth…all we needed was each other.

And now….what? I want him back. But as I have been repeating to myself all day “He’s not coming back. He’s not coming back”