Poetry

Poem Written March 2021

Almost a year now
Since the world stopped making sense
Everything I was sure of
Now in the past tense

Our dreams were laid before us
Our jobs
Our kids
Our dogs

Now everything is jumbled
The way ahead unclear
Struggling to get through days
Filled with debilitating fear

You were my rock
My constant
My North Star
My confidante

Now you need me to help you
With the littlest of things
And constantly remind you
Of what each new day brings

I try to stay strong
Get out of bed
Go to work
Keep the family fed

On the inside I'm a mess
A red ball of pain
Silently screaming
Over and over again

You still lie beside me
I love you so much it hurts
Pieces of you keep disappearing
Why do you have to go first?

I am already lonely
Yearning for the way things used to be
When we could talk for hours
Or hang together quietly

I feel so isolated
Nobody understands
How empty I feel inside
Happiness slipping through my hands